it may not necessarily be what you want to do

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Nuff said.

Mmm, coding.

OKAY. HERE WE GO.

( My three weeks in Iowa. )

Long long long long long story. In a nutshell: Kicked out. Home with parents now. When I have my computer up tomorrow, I'll tell the whole story (NOT THAT ANYONE CARES! XD).

I've noticed something in my time here. (1 day. XD)

Cigarette smoke is very, very attractive. Whispy and thin, strands of silky air. It truly is gorgeous. But not when it must be still.

This means nothing. XD

The more who answer, the happier I will be.

Why does racism exist?

( What Tarot card are you. )

All is resolved. Rejoice, for I have no more problems in my life. ^.^

Doing some experimental writing. Had a dream today and so I decided You know what I want to make a story of it.

So because I have nothing better to do, here's the beginning of the first draft.

( Fluffy's beginnings (edited) )

That's all I have so far. If you want to know the premise, yeah that's cool I'll let you know leave me a comment. But tell me what you think of that little blurbette, 'cause. I dunno I'm curious what people think. ^.^

Appropriated from surlygaijin with love.

( Character meme cut for such and such and other somesuch. )

So I guess I haven't posted for a short while. Perhaps people are concerned, then again perhaps not.

I guess. I'm not going to NY? or maybe I am, Michael hasn't exactly spoken to me the last couple days which is actually a good thing in one sense, but then again it means that I'm not actually going to GO ANYWHERE because he's not talking to me. Oh why.

My mouse has almost completely died. It will make me sad if I have to run a computer with no mouse. Although I've been doing it almost exclusively for the past couple days so I guess a month or two wouldn't kill me.

I dunno maybe I just really felt like putting up a general post about nothing of great consequence? Maybe I want to vent or something.

Apparently my grammar is deteriorating. I'm going to start writing everything as if it were inside one of my stories. Because my grammar is amazing in those.

Another boy. Another foreign boy no less. Something about foreign boys lately I dunno. He's a smart motherfucker too. Why is it all foreign people are geniuses. Oh America you are deteriorating intellectually. He's Russian, and I want to say he speaks French or some romantic language on top of that but I could just be remembering from someone else who is somewhat similar to him and yet not so. He writes satire and knows chemistry and actually just about everything. Although he's very into history and war. He knows a lot about countries and their armies and strategy. He has dark hair and brown eyes and is something like 6 feet tall which I love. I recall him roleplaying but he does it on a level which far surpasses mine, which I love and yet I hate being outdone at the same time what the hell I'm so competitive.

Sad that the longest paragraph so far in this post was about a boy. I must be emotionally desperate or something what the fuck.

Death Note is going nicely. Episode 24 will be out soon and omg I'm so excited about it seriously I can't wait.

My ear itches and I think I broke my foot in the accident. Speaking of, have I mentioned we have a rental.

My job interview, I ended up sleeping through. I was out at a guy's hotel room YES I DID TYVM.

So I would really like to move out sooner than soon but that doesn't seem like it's going to happen.

Both my classes have been dropped because of all the shit that's going on. Tyvm but no Missy you will not see Zerg anytime soon unless you're doing all the trip stuff yourself. Sorry to disappoint you.

In fact if I recall correctly he introduced us because you wanted to take a trip to see him and he knew I did too. Hm. How interesting. I think.

Haven't written anything in a long while. I should do some writing one day soon. But I dunno what to write. NO IDEA.

There was a spider that was on my monitor earlier today. I temporarily named him Yoshpet, but I think he disappeared. He probably ran away. T.T Oh Yoshpet why. WHY.

My memories keep going back to high school for some reason. I miss being in high school I loved it so. Especially the last two years when I was stabilized.

Gawd now I know why I'm going to die early, my fucking midlife crisis is going to come and my hormones are going to kill me. It's no wonder.

I've had 2 bagels so far today, one with cream cheese and one with butter, and also a mini pizza, I might have had a bagel at some point then too, and also a whole lot of Dr. Pepper. I should go for a walk. But it's raining out.

I'm going to end this because it's pointless. Here you go friends, a little message that I am in fact alive and well and aside from the accident and worries and emotions I am absolutely perfectly and blissfully happy.

The hurt is not caused by the memories I've put behind me. It's caused by you deciding to bring that shit back up again.

Appropriated from surlygaijin with love.

Psychoanalyze Yourself. Answer the following questions with the first thought that comes to mind. Then read which each answer means. (No cheating! ) best way to do this is to just copy the questions first then look under the cut and copy the answers later.

1. You are not alone. You are walking in the woods. With who?
Rabid. She's always the first to enter my thoughts when a question ends in "with who".

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal is it?
Tiger.

3. What interaction do you have with this animal?
It growls at me and scratches me, and kills me.

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing and before you is your dream house. Describe it.
100 rooms. 500 acres, all for me to do as I please with. Fountains, gardens, cars, and a butler. The maids are invisible but they keep it all shiny.

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?
No. There are no fences at my house.

6. You enter the house. You walk in to the dining room and see the dining room table. What do you see on AND around it?
There's a feast on the table, surrounded by place settings for me and my multitudes of people living with me. The walls are pale blue, but not sky blue, but not baby blue, just a pale blue. There's something lacy somewhere but I can't really say exactly where. XD

7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?
One of those travel coffee mugs.

8. What do you do with the cup?
Pick it up and carry it with me.

9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at the edge of a body of water. what kind of body of water is it?
Whatever kind it is, it's big and I can't see the end of it.

10. How will you cross the water?
I won't. I know it gets deeper the further in I go, and I'm not into going into the unknown.

( What it all means. )

Fill out FAFSA, figure out when exactly it's due by and what exactly I'm supposed to do since I'm going to a different college in IA probably. If I go to college. :x

Work out all the crap with the cell phone and make things happy. Scheduling scheduling scheduling.

HOMEWORK. DO YOUR HOMEWORK YOU LAZY. LAZY LAZY.

And any other trivial crap that might seem somewhat important at some point in time.

Bored now. I'm going to go make a duct tape wallet because I FEEL LIKE IT.

By the way, this stuff is for me but I'm making it public for the sake of if anyone knows of anything else I have to do in the near future they must TELL ME ABOUT IT.

THE RAW IS OUT OMG OMG OMG OMG.

Episode 20. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

*Cough.*

Now I just wish I were fluent in Japanese. I think I'm going to learn it simply for the sake of watching new anime without having to wait for subtitles.

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG SO EXCITEEDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

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EDIT: OMG.

In honor of episode 20, I give you Death Note entertainment. XDDDDD

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Games - Chapter 2
Word count: 12696
Information
Prologue
Chapter 1 part 1
Chapter 1 part 2
Chapter 2 part 1
( Part 2, because LJ thinks my chapters are too long. )

After a previous (friends protected) post, I was inspired to look through Games. (Yes, it mentioned writing at least once, and that's what inspired me to look through it.) The truth is, I had thought chapter 2 was unfinished for the longest time, but, I really just didn't WANT to finish it because there was SO MUCH INFORMATION. I realized, however, that most of that information is too trivial to be put in detail at all; I can work out details for every clan, but only a small portion will actually be of interest to the overall plot (that exists, I swear it exists). So, after neglecting for so long my duties to posting up chapters, I've finally put it up. Please, be kind in your critique, but critique nevertheless because I want you to!

The chapter length is slightly under par for the minimum that I wanted, but, it has a fair amount going on, so I figure, I can't be hurt by making it a little short.

Games - Chapter 2
Word count: 12696
Information
Prologue
Chapter 1 part 1
Chapter 1 part 2
( Part 1, because LJ thinks my chapters are too long. )

Death Note DVD release=?

I like this one. I like it a lot.

I also like Hellsing.

I might end up making random fansites to both one bored day when I happen to have watched all the episodes. :x

( Because I gank everything I find interesting. )